The one that got away

And someday you'll look back and wish you would've stayed when she begged you to. You'll count all the times you made her cry & you'll slide to your knees & cry with her memory. You'll realize that all she ever wanted was for you to be there; to be there for her. That she loved you more than she'd ever loved herself. You'll remember the night she called you because you didn't answer the night before, to tell you how she felt through gentle tears. & you'll remember how it must've felt for her to spill it all out on the table, just for you to fall asleep, dreaming in the middle of her heart breaking.

You'll remember it all. 

The way she kissed your lips & the way she smiled when you kissed hers. The way she laughed harder than anyone else ever did at all of your stupid jokes. The smile on her face every time you walked through the door. She let you cry on her shoulder every time you needed to & she always came back to you, no matter how many times her heart tried to pull her away.

She loved you. & not the way a person loves summer rain or popsicles on the Fourth of July. No. She felt in much brighter colors than that. She saw every struggle you ever had & bump you hit on the road, but she'd still be there to sit with you on the sidewalk until your sadness melted away. & she knew you weren't one for standing on mountain tops declaring your love for her... but she'd hold your hand forever if you let her. She loved your curly hair & your crooked teeth. She saw perfection where you saw mistakes. And your eyes, gosh your eyes. She must've had their colors memorized. She could never get enough of your voice, you know. & if ever you called, she'd drop her life to run to the phone. It's like every word that slipped through your lips was some kind of revelation to her. You could leave her to cry herself to sleep & she would wake the next morning & still defend you against the world until the end. 

You had her wrapped around your distracted little fingers. 

And when she fell away, you must've looked the other way, because only a fool like you would let a girl like her be the one that got away.